Monday, 31 July 2017

Learning to Love Yourself (or the Journey Towards It)

Hey guys,

Confidence is always something that I've struggled with. I wasn't particularly 'popular' at school, and puberty definitely hit me like a ton of bricks. Genuinely, I showed a picture of my teenage self to my housemate and he was shocked at how much I'd changed.

But in reality, I don't think I've changed. I'm still that 14 year old who pretends to be absolutely fine and pretends to have some sort of confidence about her, when in fact she has very little. I've never been the prettiest girl or the slimmest girl, but that's not what affects me. I have completely accepted this fact. It's the fact that I compare myself to everyone, and that if someone points out something about myself that I already feel is a flaw, it just replays in my mind. I still can remember the time when someone made a pretty nasty comment about my nose, and when someone pointed out how ugly I was to the entire class.

But then I think, that was school. And I'm not the same person that I was at school. And there is more to life than the way I look. I got good grades, and yes, I got mocked for it, but I'm now studying at a Russell Group university studying something I really enjoy. I was also called boring at school, yet if you actually get to know me, I am pretty damn hilarious. I am genuinely the most sarcastic person you will ever meet, and I love to take the piss out of myself. I was also told how I was too nice for my own good, and to be honest, this one is correct, as I let people get away with walking all over me and treating me like shit, but I guess you can't win them all.

I mean, I'm still not completely there yet, and I may not ever get there to completely loving myself, but I'm definitely learning to accept myself. The picture above was taken at a point where I was happy, my make-up had gone okay (considering my very mediocre make-up skills) and I was feeling somewhat confident within myself.

I'm not the brightest, or the funniest, or the prettiest (thank god for make-up), but I'm me. I'm Grace, the 20 year old who sometimes has a bad confidence day, but is learning to come to terms with myself. I'm a good person, I'm a good friend, I'm the most loyal person you will ever meet, and I love my friends and family more than anything. I'm just me, and I need to learn that this is nothing to be ashamed of. Even though I have been told that I'm not good enough and I'm not this and I'm not that, I'm learning to accept that people can have their opinions. But it shouldn't make me feel worthless because other people want to push me down. But I'm learning. I'm learning to love myself, or at least I'm on the journey towards it.

Thank you so much for reading,

Much love,

Grace x


  1. This is a beautiful post and really relatable. I went through the same phase and had some hard time loving myself and accepting who and what I am. I am not done yet but on my way :) xx corinne

  2. PREACH! sorry but that was meant to be in caps lock because you are literally preaching. also, before I even started reading I was so shook?! you're so so pretty omg! I love this post and I agree with most of the things you've said! xx

    sami /

  3. I loved reading this and I find it super relatable! I'm learning to accept myself and mainly my body and trying to love myself more! I constantly compare myself to others which I think makes myself feel worse about myself!
    Kate Xx

  4. I think all of us have self doubt, lack of confidence , but it is part of being a human. Someone told me speak with yourself as you were speaking with your best friend. You would never say horrible things to your friend, you would always encourage and support. Everyday I am learning to be my own best friend , let's learn together?;)

  5. I relate to this post so much it's silly. I'm still struggling with my self confidence and it's something I try to overcome every day. I wish I read this post sooner as I know it's going to help. Help remind me that I'm me and me is perfect in my own way! Lovely post Ellen 💗

    Tabitha 🐡🐡


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